Small Wonders!

Last night was a long one. I found myself in a lot of pain. There have been good days and bad days while dealing with this kidney stone and last night can definitely be filed in the bad pain folder! My spirits were down and overall I just felt exhausted. I was sitting on the couch trying my best to breathe through the pain.

And then the most wonderful thing happened!

On Monday, August 17, 2009 I felt my baby whirl and twirl inside of me. As I type this I am tearing up. It was truly the most magical experience of my life. I have read numerous books and listened attentively as many extraordinary women described this experience. It was unlike anything I expected. It was pure bliss. For a moment I felt connected to all life.

I instinctively wanted to share this experience with Eddie as I do with most things in my life. I began to describe what I was feeling and then I realized that I couldn't. Not because I didn't have the words but because this was between me and our child. This moment in time belonged to us. A feeling that I know he will one day experience himself. This is the beginning of a million moments and memories. How beautifully simple and yet so complex.

I will be thrilled to hold this beautiful baby in my arms but I am truly honored to carry this child in my womb for now and my soul always!